Forgive

When we're young, we don't always understand how things work. Correction...we absolutely don't understand how things work. We don't understand anything. About life. About love. About who we are. About what is right. I'm not completely sure many adults fully understand how things work.

But I have found the older I get, the more I learn and the more I understand. The more important the little things become and more irrelevant the big showy things really feel.

That being said, everyone around you is going through the same thing. They understand just as much about themselves and how things work. How their heart works. How the things they say effect you. It isn't until you have even a tiny bit of understanding that you can finally come to terms with the wrong, or rights, that have been done to you by others.

Once you're there, though, a world of possibility opens up. You can stop wondering what was the REAL meaning behind his horrible words. You can stop caring why they acted selfishly. You can stop blaming yourself for the tragic ending who's pain lingers far beyond the actual memory. All of these actions are rooted in forgiveness.

Good thing we're so smart now. Good thing we have so much more knowledge than we did then. Because now we know it all...right?

Voices

We all hear voices. Whether we chose to listen to them or not. They're there. Call it your subconscious. Call it intuition. Call it delusion. Whatever you chose to call it, we all have that voice.

Mine is usually the voice of reason desperately trying to guide me in the right decision, down the right path. It's usually wiser and more rationale than I am at the moment. It's also way more realistic than I would ever like to admit.

Of course, we don't ask it for its opinion. Sometimes we don't even want to admit we hear it and all its sensible reason. But we do. The harder you try to turn the volume down, the louder it yells.

Most of the time, its got a point. Its pushing to the forefront all the important things you are overlooking or not thinking about (purposely or not). It wants what's best for you. So why...does it suck to listen to it sometimes?

Because it wants you to be the person you are on the inside. The person it sees everyday. The person we are guilty of sometimes hiding. The person that always makes the right decision, who is good to herself and those around her. The person who never is jealous or frustrated or selfish.

That stupid voice is our reminder we can all be better than we are. It's a voice that believes in us no matter what. It's exhausting in its support.

So I say, stop being so damn stubborn. Listen to the voice. Its got things to say. Notice I didn't say its got nothing but good things to say. I don't always like what my little voice has to say but I admit, most of the time, it's right. And usually the outcome is right too. Blasted little voice. You're always right!

Note: I don't really hear voices, per say. At least not in that "I see dead people" kind of way.